THIS ONE IS FOR U

i picked up a new hobby
to vent my anger,disappoinment and frustration
one more...
that is for u...

ONCE UPON A BORING AFTERNOON

bored
no ciggies
limited cash
i saw a safety pin
and this is wat i did..











hehehehe...ni namanye takde keje

MEMORIES

prior to that...
khai sms-ed me
NO!not that desaru cycling Khai
its khai ECE...or better known as khai si mat tapered tu..
ahackz...wat a surprise!!!
its been so long since we've met
he's now graduated and in a months's time..he's gonna fall into the "abang2 polis" category too

oh gawd...memories of lepak sessions at atrium
and smoking sessions at bustop just came flooding by
those were the early poly days...

erkk!! all these reminiscing bout the past just makes me feel freaking old

COINCIDENCES

ex-crushes been coming back into my life one after another


first it was juraimi (now abg polis)


then "botak" started sms-ing me again after years of silence
( had a lil crush on him in my early years in poly but we never talk when we meet even though we're in the same class not even smile when we bump directly into each other.kinda wierd cos i recalled an incident whereby we were the only 2 ppl in the lift..and he talks to me but once the door opens he acts as though he dont know me but he flirts in his sms-es )


and then..this morning and again at night had a chat with "pakcik munkee"
( the one who had my pic enlarged and framed up on the wall of his room
sampaikan umi dia can still remember me after like a year plus of not contacting each other cos he recognised me from the pic...but must be careful cos he's starting to have a crush on me again but problem is..he's attached now..so i must not kacau them)


and in the afternoon..a long lost irc fren sms-ed me
(i cant remember who the hell he is but he remembers everything about me and mind u..i havent been in irc for more than 3 yrs now )


mcm tau je aku nga single
and mcm tau je aku dah start using my starhub number
and im sure all these ppl will disappear soon like how they re-appeared


coincidences..coincidences..coincidences...
WIERD coincidences...

KECOH DAY

i was out shoe hunting with sal,sis,sri today
supposed to hunt for vans originals but we found these instead..





i love far east plaza..it has anything and everything under one roof
1 thing i hate though..
being the very malas and simple minded melayu i am..
i'll forget all about the good things the place has to offer once i get out of far east plaza and
i can never ever remember what shop is where
so i always had a hard time going back to the shop i went to previously


ahackz!! kecoh and excited giler kite hari ni..
actually its not becos of the shoes
but its just us
when sri,sal and hani meets up..
there'll be no more peace
hahahhahahahah


rushed off to high street after that
racing against time to get to the top of the building
to catch these...











and after that..on the way home...
we met many many abang2 polis..
kene kacau plak tu..
but urgh!! menyesal aku bo layan abg polis yg kacau kite tu
sebab bile aku pusing balik..he's actually kinda cute!!


and...we met JURAIMI!!
yes!! that same juraimi i had a crush on like a few years back!
OMG!!! he looks soooo cute in his full police uniform!!
still donning that sweet cair-able smile of his..
sheesh!! reminds me of those times...
hahhahahahah....


and one more surprise of the day..
botak sms-ed me
yup!! botak np...
another ex-crush of mine
yg sombong nk mampos kat sekolah tapi kalau time member dia takde or masa sms frenly and cute abes...
OMG! wat is this??
crushes day??


wateva it is...today was fun !!

LOOK UP AND SAY HEY

i was scanning thru my old entries dated 2 months ago and..
oh my god!!
its scary!!!
ive turned into this whiny cry-baby love slave
was that really me?????
*almost fainted in disbelief*


im gonna put a stop to all these wallowing-in-self-pity mode
HELLO!!! its been 2 months!!
its MORE than enough dearest hani...


so from this moment on...


+ no more loved dovey sad jiwang or even whiny emo songs
+ its time to bring in the energy of Oi!, punk and hardcore!
+ not forgetting the happy tunes of Ska to start the morning
+ no more late nights spent crying my eyeballs out ..GET YOUR BEAUTY SLEEP!
+ no more reminiscning the past...just laugh it off
+ dont let him make u cry again... hani dear...u have many other frens who appreciates u and can make u laugh... go bug them instead!!
+ dont forget to polish up ur DM boots...its already collecting dust.its time u don them on again..wee~


hahhahaha...
welcome back hani...
welcome back..
here's a toast to u..


p/s sayang atok kebayan..lets get back to being just frens ya.. ;)

DEAD END

everythings gone
dreams and hopes shattered
things will never be back to normal again for us
worst still...
things will never get better
its getting worst day by day
and the emotional and mental stress is getting to me
im tired so please stop
i gave up
i lost hope
so please leave me alone
let me wilt and wither

TRIP WITH DAD TO KOTA TINGGI

DAD: ani,lepas hujan berhenti,kau siap2..kita gi kota tinggi.nak ikut tak?


ME : hah??? today?? kota tinggi?? again?? for what??


DAD : banyak tanye lak.nak ikut tak? inform atan sekali


ME: (in my heart.. what the hell???? tapi takpe..i better tag along) ok..set!


pergghh!! i cant wait to get a bike of my own.then i can go zoom zoom like my dad...anywhere..and anytime..


anyhow..shopping and lepak session with dad,atan,noli(his sis) and her fren was...erm...scary and confusing...


this shouldn't have happened


they are getting too close for comfort and the worst part is..WE r having issues...serious issues

KAMPUNG LIFE

weekends spent at kampung at segamat was an enjoyable one


even though electricity was cut due to heavy downpour..
it didnt dampened our spirits
and didnt affect our planned bbq


all thanks to the power of lampu colok deepavali (hah..thats wat i call it)
and thanks to the big big shelter we put up


but it was really fun bbqing during the heavy downpour..
played in the rain
me shivering while bbqing the satay and chicken
getting ourselves warm from the fire of the bbq pit


and...ive had enough of rambutans,langsat and durians especially!!
god!! i ate a whole lot of them..until im sick of them
if u see the amount we collected from dusun abang mokhtar
u'll be shocked!


i was bitten by an army of commado mosquitoes while picking the fruits and cili padi and pucuk ubi and what have yous...
hahahha...masa busy memetik tak terasa gatalnye...bile time tido..fuyo!! ish! merenyam satu badan


oh yah...forgot to mention bout the riding lesson..
perghh!! aku merempit tak igt dunia...!
kat kampung konfiden lah naik moto sebab kenderaan pun kurang...
heheh..


my nieces and nephews are all grown up...
and angah and zizi have become sooo handsome..
mesti ramai awek kan??:P


the only thing that irriates me is that
my uncle and aunties at kampung kept asking me about "cik abang kat kota tinggi"
how the hell they know about HIM????????


the 3 days 4 nights trip seems so short
but if we stayed any longer
i will get bored
cos there arent even handphone coverage
not much activities
and i miss my hp and internet
and i miss some people very much

CINTA INTERNET

hani hani hani...
im always making frens from faraway
and the surprising thing is..
some of them turn out to be one of my really2 close frens
and the scary thing is..
some of these really2 close frens (intially just internet frens)
begin to have more-than-just-frens feelings for me
which make things really difficult for me
cos...


1)i already have an on-off boyfren whom i love very much(although we're having probelm rite now)
2)its difficult to tell them nicely that i only want us to be just frens without jeorpadizing the frenship and closeness we already shared
3) even if they can take the rejection..there will always be a problem with the boyfren


my boyfren is no longer mr understanding..
ever since i told him off and ask him to stop contacting the girl(his fren) who came between us before we broke up(she likes him and has been trying to get him in a really nice pijak semut tak mati kinda way that he became blinded by her at 1 point of time sampaikan dia sanggup menduakan aku..bwek!)..
he's been extra sensitive when it comes to my guy frens.
so if he knew about that...
he's gonna ask me to stop befrending them although they've already drop their feelings and trying to be just a fren...



please iqbal...dont call me sayang...
im sure there're many girls in kalimantan who really likes u and u ought to give them a chance...
even though im having issues with my guy
u know that i still love him dont u?
after all..we're really far away from each other..
i dont wanna lose the fresnhip we shared




aku senang sama kamu tapi kita tak mungkin bersatu