WORDS OF WISDOM

One's dignity may be assaulted, vandalized and cruelly mocked, but cannot be taken away unless it is surrendered.

SEKSIS (ANITA SARAWAK)

Bila ku bersuara... kau kategorikan sebagai meleter
Bila kau tercabar... sebelum bertarung pun ku dah kau singkir
Tika di jalanan... cermat ku cuai
Di stereotype `lady driver¡
Bila tunjuk pandai... lagakmu hebat
Mengalahkan seorang profesor


Oh mana keadilannya
Balik-balik kita saja terkena
Dahulu hingga kini
Kau memonopoli... cuba menguasai
Duniaku ini... oh mana aci


Korus:
Jangan pandangku sebelah mata
Hanya kerna namaku wanita
Walau ada kelemahannya
Engkau pun apa tidaknya oh
Jangan pandangku sebelah mata
Nanti kejantananmu tercabar
Takkanku menyerah kalah
Kerana madahmu berat sebelah
Tohmahanmu akan ku tepis
selagi persis tak terkikis seksis


Pabilaku ramah... manis lidah
Kau tuduhku bagai perempuan murah
Namun bila kau menutup helah
Katamu mengikut sunnah
Andai ku meniang rumahtangga
Jangan harap ucapan tahniah
Hujung bulan tiba... ku tuntut nafkah
Kau buatku macam peminta sedekah


Oh mana keadilannya
Balik-balik kau juga juara
Asyik kita beri saja
Melayan takhta... siang malam buta
dan penuh setia... bagaikan raja

LELAKI TETAP LELAKI

yup...ternyata sangkaanku tepat
sayang dan cinta hanya permainan kata bagi ramai lelaki

hahhahahahaahah..
one more guy trying to fool me uh?
well,u got the wrong girl cos ive had enough of guys like u
but for now...
i'll play along with ur little games...
and wait till its my turn to play u out..




this is getting fun...*winks*

weekend was spent at East Coast Costa Sands Resort with my paternal family
food was abundant and really yummy (we had a bbq),
the cake was superb (celebrated bdays of those born in august) ,
the people were ok (my uncles,aunties and cousins arent the kecoh makcik2 kaypo type...excluding one or two)
but i was bored,lonely and not in the mood
most probably because i was expecting a certain someone but he didnt turn up on saturday as promised...


BUT...
SUNDAY was a brand new day..
he came at 11am (my dad fetched him)
spent some time with my family and about 5pm we excused ourselves from the chalet and headed to the beach first and then to city hall ( he wanted to buy some stuff frm peninsula plaza)


when i first saw him came with dad
i had wanted to give him a hug there and then
i forgot all the bad things he did to me
i was just soooo touched and elated he came


i miss him soo very much
ever since the big quarrel for 3 months and the break up
i never thought i would meet him again with the same feeling i had when we first went out on a date


i know he miss me too
and i can sense and see that he still loves me
and longed for us to be together just like old times


there arent any of HER smses in his hp anymore
maybe he had realised his mistakes
although he's still together with her


he knew i forgave him
he knew im willing to go back to him
so why did he say NO when i suggested a patch up?


i dunno...im confused
our relationship is really a complicated one..
BUT...its okay..
its enough for me to know that he still loves me
and i love him too
time and fate will determine whats next for us..


for now...lets just take this as a new beginning...



sayang,terima kasih.aku amat menghargai kehadiran mu dan aku harap kini kau faham dan sedar segala apa yg aku lakukan sebelum ini

A * * N

aaaaaaarrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

why do i always let HIM get to me????

u've become a total stranger and i fucking hate u now...

MAAF

just received this from botak
"tadi ptg saya tak menepati janji.maaf"


i was kinda blur at first
what happened this afternoon?
what promise was it that he didnt keep?
why did he send that sms?


and then i remembered...


we were told to collect our lab test practice paper to practice for the coming lab test this afternoon but my fucked up lecturer never kept his promise
tried contacting him thru his extension but we couldnt get thru
botak sms-ed me and suggested calling his hp but unfortunately i dont have his hp
and so i replied this


(kat dlm class yg sama pun nk sms2 eh...ish2 pelik aku)


me : saya takde nombor hp dia.awk call ar
botak : jom ar
me : jom ?!? lek ar..lepas kelas
botak : ok


so after class i approached him and said...


me : ( facing the lift door ) so? nk call ke tak?
botak : (mcm menggelabah while suhaimi gave us that wierd look)erh..erm..besok ar..besok


and i just left...i thought that was it..
until i received his sms just now..
OH MY GOD!!
i totally didnt expect that sorry message..
how sweet is that??




omg..aku pun gile gak.login just to blog about this padahal tadi aku baru je nk lelapkan mata

ITCH

my lower lip is a little swollen
and it kinda itch a little
i think its due to the piercings
:(


talking about itch...
my fingers are itching to reply HIS sms-es..
been MIA-ing from HIM for 3 days now
but he hasnt stop smsing and trying to call me


i miss him..
yes..he's still the last person i think of before i go to sleep
despite the presence of tom,joe and harry (bukan nama sebenar)
arrrghh! its frustrating to not be able to get over him
BUT...
i will not succumb to the temptation
i will not relpy his sms-es
i will not answer his calls


even though i miss him soo much
cos im hurting really bad right now
over what he had done
and i fucking hate that bitch!




r u happier now that im gone?

BOTAK's NEW HAIRSTYLE

ahackz...
i cant stop stealing glances at botak in tutorial class today
i used to think that he was on a revenge to make up for being botak for 5 years of his life by not cutting off his very messy and outgrown hair
(its really really messy)


but finally...yes finally..
he got a haircut!! yey!!
its still long at the top but the sides are shaved
and yes..he looks more presentable now
terserlah kecomelan nye...heheh


though i would really love it if he's botak again
i think he looks really cute back during his botak days
it highlights his really big and beautiful eyes
and his smile...:D
i had a crush on him cos of that apart from his really wierd and mysterious ways


by the way...i sent him this sms after class today


" awak kelihatan kemas hari ni.nice haircut"
(wanted to add..tapi awk lebih cute kalau botak..but i didnt..hahah)


and this is what he replied
" haha.awak notice ye.menerima kasih"


hahahhahaha...he always give wierd replies
and i find it cute...waahahahahah

SIAPA BILANG GADIS MELAYU TAK MENAWAN

the song is stuck in my head


just got back from danga bay with sal and norman
nothing much...just lepak...
and had to waste money on cab fare becos dearest norman didnt drive his car today
(bile kite klua 2 orang je kamu bawak kereta...tapi bile klua lebih dari 2 orang kamu bawak moto lak...apadah)
but cant blame him cos he didnt know sal was coming..
(urgh!! kalau tak dpt aku naik moto ngan dia eh..wahahahha...)


but norman was very mean and cheeky today!!!
for the first time in our entire 3 years of frenship...dia pukul aku!!!
(ok not really pukul lah...but still...grrrr!!!)


norman...norman...norman...
persahabatan aku dgn dia dah mencecah lebih dari 3 tahun
dia lah kawan malaysia yg pertama yg aku kenal
dari irc lak tu..
tak sangka leh rapat sampai skarang
dia lah (secara tak langsung) yg menjadi permulaan bagi penglibatan aku dgn budak2 kat malaysia
dan dia lah yg memulakan hobi merantau aku tu..


hmm...entahlah...
susah nk terangkan tentang persahabatan aku ngan dia
aku pernah sayangkan dia
dan dia pernah sayangkan aku
tapi pada 2 masa yg berbeza
dia pernah hancurkan hati aku
dan aku pernah sakitkan hati dia
tapi skarang ni...we've reached a point whereby..
kita tak hiraukan lagi soal hati dan perasaan masing2 terhadap diri masing2
we still do talk and joke about it sometimes
but...lepas tu...masing2 just abaikan bende tu mcm tu je
yes...we've accepted the fact that we're meant to be just close frens and nothing more


i love him
he loves me
but its a different kind of love
no one can understand this
but im glad he does

THIS ONE IS FOR U

i picked up a new hobby
to vent my anger,disappoinment and frustration
one more...
that is for u...

ONCE UPON A BORING AFTERNOON

bored
no ciggies
limited cash
i saw a safety pin
and this is wat i did..











hehehehe...ni namanye takde keje

MEMORIES

prior to that...
khai sms-ed me
NO!not that desaru cycling Khai
its khai ECE...or better known as khai si mat tapered tu..
ahackz...wat a surprise!!!
its been so long since we've met
he's now graduated and in a months's time..he's gonna fall into the "abang2 polis" category too

oh gawd...memories of lepak sessions at atrium
and smoking sessions at bustop just came flooding by
those were the early poly days...

erkk!! all these reminiscing bout the past just makes me feel freaking old

COINCIDENCES

ex-crushes been coming back into my life one after another


first it was juraimi (now abg polis)


then "botak" started sms-ing me again after years of silence
( had a lil crush on him in my early years in poly but we never talk when we meet even though we're in the same class not even smile when we bump directly into each other.kinda wierd cos i recalled an incident whereby we were the only 2 ppl in the lift..and he talks to me but once the door opens he acts as though he dont know me but he flirts in his sms-es )


and then..this morning and again at night had a chat with "pakcik munkee"
( the one who had my pic enlarged and framed up on the wall of his room
sampaikan umi dia can still remember me after like a year plus of not contacting each other cos he recognised me from the pic...but must be careful cos he's starting to have a crush on me again but problem is..he's attached now..so i must not kacau them)


and in the afternoon..a long lost irc fren sms-ed me
(i cant remember who the hell he is but he remembers everything about me and mind u..i havent been in irc for more than 3 yrs now )


mcm tau je aku nga single
and mcm tau je aku dah start using my starhub number
and im sure all these ppl will disappear soon like how they re-appeared


coincidences..coincidences..coincidences...
WIERD coincidences...

KECOH DAY

i was out shoe hunting with sal,sis,sri today
supposed to hunt for vans originals but we found these instead..





i love far east plaza..it has anything and everything under one roof
1 thing i hate though..
being the very malas and simple minded melayu i am..
i'll forget all about the good things the place has to offer once i get out of far east plaza and
i can never ever remember what shop is where
so i always had a hard time going back to the shop i went to previously


ahackz!! kecoh and excited giler kite hari ni..
actually its not becos of the shoes
but its just us
when sri,sal and hani meets up..
there'll be no more peace
hahahhahahahah


rushed off to high street after that
racing against time to get to the top of the building
to catch these...











and after that..on the way home...
we met many many abang2 polis..
kene kacau plak tu..
but urgh!! menyesal aku bo layan abg polis yg kacau kite tu
sebab bile aku pusing balik..he's actually kinda cute!!


and...we met JURAIMI!!
yes!! that same juraimi i had a crush on like a few years back!
OMG!!! he looks soooo cute in his full police uniform!!
still donning that sweet cair-able smile of his..
sheesh!! reminds me of those times...
hahhahahahah....


and one more surprise of the day..
botak sms-ed me
yup!! botak np...
another ex-crush of mine
yg sombong nk mampos kat sekolah tapi kalau time member dia takde or masa sms frenly and cute abes...
OMG! wat is this??
crushes day??


wateva it is...today was fun !!