:: PMS FEST ::

went with izzah,chuck and ayap....and met up with noid,azam and his frens at city hall.


menunggu ketibaan chuck,ayap and kawan2 azam


where is the MRT???

as expected...many turned up for the PMS fest @ expo but the hall was damn small...so we couldn't squeeze in at first and missed the first few ska bands.DAMN! sakit hati sey bile nga line up outside abeh dengar lagu gerek sak kat dlm...ish! shud've been there earlier.dpt enjoy more ska and be spared from the unnecessary clashes.

Punk Metal Ska fest...well...biasa ar...music,skanking,moshing,pogo-ing,smoking,drinking,fighting....standard ar ni semua...just that this time banyak sngt trouble...lepas satu..satu...relak ar..we go there to have fun and enjoy..bukan nak gadoh...in the end..gig stopped 3/4 way...*bleugh*

and the worst part is...the clash is among sendiri nye culture...wats the use of shouting unite and fight?...brotherhood and unity?...is that all for show? just words and no action?...aahhhh....sedih sey nengok scene mcm gini...hai~ gasak korang lah...


woodlands burger king...after the gig..

sedih2..lepak ngan budak punk jugak gerek...lepak nye lepak sampai tak sadar dah kul 1++...bas dah habis..terpaksalah jalan kaki balik...tapi tak pe..penat tak terasa sngt sebab sume jalan together2....

kau membenci sesama sendiri....

:: WEDNESDAYS ::

Slack sey niari.Ape tidak nye..setakat IS classes je...I LOVE WEDNESDAYS!!!...every Wednesday confirm aku nye sewel is at its peak...Hahahahahha!!! Hmm...but..thanks to my sardenness and sewelness...im now in talking terms with him...sms lagi...hahhahahaha!!! Tapi starting conversation merepek sey!!..ish..now that I thought of what happened..oh god!!...siallah!!..Hani Sarden sak!!!...

Ok anyway..semenjak dah jadi minah bajet ni...i've been up and down JB so often.Si Izzah pun dah naik shiok pulak ikut aku.So today..we went JB again but this time Chek Sal pun ikut skali.Kenyang perut kite makan mee...complete ngan air limau ice pulak tu...Emm...enak!! Lazat dan berkrim..disukai ramai!!..Dah slalu turun naik JB pun masih tak jelak..makin suka adalah...hahhahaha...oi kawan2!!!....tukar port sua!!...gi JB kite terus jadi kaya kejap!! Ahakz..sial abes!!..

K lah...im off for now...handphone dah memanggil...hehehe...(",)

Djarum is back!! Yey!!

:: THE SUN THE SAND THE SEA ::


Liza,Me,An

Went East Coast with An,Liza and Liza's friends just now.Sume case aku tak kenal nye..entah pe hal Si Liza iye iye ajak...nasib ada An...taklah kesunyian aku tadi.Ape tak nye..tak leh click sak dgn the girls...An and me..seriously out of place...


see...out of place kan??

ish..susah nak buat conversation...lain freqeuncy ar!!abeh sakit jugak mata memandang...MELUAT SAK!!!hai~wat to do...some things just cannot be forced...but some of the guys ok ar..LEPAK!!..ada satu pakai baju sepasang ngan aku pulak...PAISEH SAK!!...most of the time...An and me lepak bebual layan diri sendiri..or played cards with the guys and Liza...tapi ok ar..dpt free makan dan minum...and anyway..i miss the beach!!!


An...my savior!!..hahha..


group photo

Lepas tu..singgah tempat keje Liza gi cekup chocolate and sweets..hehehhe....puas hati..paid on $4+ for stuff worth $15+....then visited Yani yg sedang demam and lepakked kat bawah blok...

gerek sey!!...we talked about lotsa stuff....details cannot be included...*censored*...even talked abt THAT someone whom i've been missing...hai~sedih sey....

and now..im back home..ooopss!!..lum blaja for MPI lab test lagi..aahh...bedallah..malas aku nak blaja last minute...

you'll never see the last of us???...yeah right...

:: WALKING DOWN MEMO LANE ::

To those who noticed that Hani can no longer be found at atrium or busstop after skool and had been wondering what happened...fret not.Hani just needs time to herself for now and thus had been MIA-ing from her usual lepak ports and kakis.Its been almost 2 weeks now...going back home str8 after skool and lepakking @ a new port either alone or with a different bunch of ppl.

Don't know exactly what u guys think of the change.Some of u might think that I wanna step goody-2-shoes or some might think im angry at them or worse still...some might think that I ditched my old buddies for new ones and wateva shit...lemme just say this..COME ON!!U GUYS KNOW ME BETTER THAN TO MAKE THOSE ASSUMPTIONS RIGHT?...anyway..the ppl I met up with recently are no strangers...they're also my buddies...mainly those punks...chuck,ayap and frens...aaannnddd...IZZAH..(though I cant deny the fact that I wasn't really close to her before)...

Hmm...dunnolah...initial cause of MIA was because I felt that im losing myself and wanted to get back and str8ten myself out...and also because I really needed time off frm some of my close frens...BUT now...though im still kinda lost and confused...YET..im enjoying myself..in a different way...dunno how to explain also..Its as if I've been released frm prison...I found MY FREEDOM...YET...im also kinda frustrated @ how different things are currently...

AARRRGGGHHH!!!! NVM...things will fall back into place soon...

Time will tell...In the meantime..maybe u're away frm my arms but u neva been away frm my heart...

:: !ping me ::

aaaarrrrggghhhh!!!!! im LAGGINGGGGGG!!!....Nope...im not talking bout MiRC....im talking bout school stuff....yeah yeah...Hani finally bothered bout school...aku pun tak tau angin ape aku gi check aku nye schedule...HAH Kau!!..skali check...terperanjat berok aku...

firstly...im waaaaayyyy behind for all my modules..(except maths)...haha..its been DAMN long since i stepped foot into the lecture theatres...(sampaikan lecturer dah tukar pun aku tak tau..RABAK!!)..just found out that there're quite a number of formal reports to be done and handed up mostly by next week...i've 3 lab tests and 2 quizzes next week...aannndd..being in my class sucks..(sume case dapat almost perfect score...aku nye maths and ACDA nye marks gitu nye tinggi pun tak leh fight ngan dorang)....SHIT!! matilah aku kali ini...

okok...takmo panic...(breathing in and out)...take one thing at a time...i can handle this...

can't slack no more.....revenge of the slacker...

:: FIGHT FOR YOUR RIGHT ::

I've heard so many stories of girls being taken advantage of by guys...be it emotionally,physically or sexually.GOD!!! don't these guys have a heart??? I've heard tooo many stories of them till it makes me wonder if there's still good guys around?

And..to those girls out there...don't be afraid to voice out...don't be afraid to fight back..don't be blinded by love.I mean...if your guy hits you...treats you like shit...does that mean they love you???are they worth your love??? come on...be practical...if they really love you like what THEY said...they wouldn't hurt you.BEWARE!!! don't be easily taken in by their words...GUYS are really good with words...dorang memang pandai memujuk...you gotta be strong and not fall into their traps...jgn mudah mengalah dengan kata2 manis yg dorang ucapkan...jgn mudah percaya janji2 kosong yg dorang lafazkan...be smart...be strong...fight for your right...


i aint got feelings?i aint got a heart?....well...there're reasons...

:: BETWEEN CIVILIZATION AND SAVAGERY ::

Watched LORD OF THE FLIES again in np's library during my 3 hr break.Im still as captivated as the 1st time i READ the novel...a damning interpretation of human nature, showing how once-civilized youngsters gradually turn into savages when left to their own devices. This disturbing tale of the downfall of civilization really makes you think.Creepy...tragic...u guys should go watch it or read it.

how thin is the line between them???

:: BLED IT ALL AWAY ::

hey!!i felt better already!!it's as if i've bled my sorrows and angst away...well..not all of it but it sure does help at least a bit...
and what a coincidence!!! got a msg from stanly about my common test results...i aced my maths...98/100...ahahahhaha!!yes!!aannddd...i passed my MPI with a 54...yeah yeah...not v impressing but i expected to flung it real bad...so....i guess i deserve a treat!!Hmm..im gonna buy myself ice cream this weekend...but it'll be nicer if hehe..someone else buy it for me...ahahahhahaha..FAT HOPES!! everybody's broke.....lalallalalal....

can you feel it oozing out of you??

:: I FEEL NO PAIN ::

in a world full of pretense
i put on my daily facade
thought i aint gonna be fooled by no one
but i always end up a victim of one



and just like before
i'll cut myself again
blood trickles down my hand
i feel no pain



i gave up feeling
i gave up loving
aint it wonderful being numb
aint it wonderful playing dumb



all those sad thoughts aint gonna haunt me no more
even if i end up cutting myself again
even if i end up getting hurt again
u cant make me feel pain



with a smile on my face
i bid u farewell
just watch me bleed
i feel no pain




feeding on chaos...living in sin...im empty within...

:: BINGE ::

all i need is a bottle
and i don't need no friends no
wallow in my pain
i swallow as i pretend to act like im happy
when i drink till no end
im losing all my friends
im losing in the end

breathe in...bleed out...