:: A RAINY SATURDAY MORNING ::

a very great omen to start the day~!!! ahackz...its been looong since i drenched myself in the rain...almost forgot wat it feels like to just stand there and embrace every single drop of it....cool..refreshing...calming...im still loving it after all these years....(",)

wasnt in the mood to hang out in town or at city hall today..which is kinda wierd cos its a SATURDAY...not in the mood to go home too...mum's not talking to dad...sis getting on my nerve...dunno the reason why...everything's so tensed up at home....so after tuition...headed straight to the library instead...

browsed tru many2 books on feminism..capitalism...terrorism...anarchism... love...poetry...blablabla..
its amazing wat u can find in our public library...all u hafta to do is take the effort to search tru wats provided..if ure too lazy to skim tru every single titles on the shelves..u can always make use of the OPAC..just type the subject ure looking for..and WALLA...it'll tell u where to find them...

had the whole day and the whole library to myself!! it was really great...just me and the books in a lil cozy corner far frm evryone's view...(or maybe i was too engrossed reading dat i forgot anyone esle exists...haha)

proceeded home after that..played with my dearest IANN the TUPAI and cleaned its cage...hmmph!! that lil squirrel is becoming nottier day by day...wanted to scratch my nose when i kissed him on his head...felt like biting him!GrRRrr!!!...BUT he's still sooooo adorable!!! cUtE..CheeKy..NoTTy..lil MuNkeE ..sQuiRReL!!!

yeah...dats how my day went today...nothing interesting...very mundane...YET...im happy and felt sooo relaxed...(i havent been feeling dat way the last few weeks or so...)

 Well...i guess...i DO need to spent some time for myslef...just ME, MYSELF and I...*shrug* its like a regular dosage...if i dun get it..im gonna get all cranky and emo..and full of angst and hatred...ahahahha...wierd uh?? oh well...dats hani for u...

now dat im all calmed down...its time to meet those guys at JB tomorrow...and im gonna bring my sis along...lets just hope everything will be alright tmr!!

 

been living in someone else's shadow....
am i not entitled to live life my own way??
i hate living in obligations..
why cant i lead mine..and u lead yours??
i want MY freedom!!
fuck off will u!!!


 

:: SPIDERMAN2 @ CS ::

went JB again today..wee!! FINALLY got to catch SPIDERMAN2 !! yeah yeah..i know..went all the way there just to watch a movie is kinda stupid BUT it was worth it!! (aku kan bajet queen..ahackz..)

indulged ourselves to the delicious aunt annie pretzels each after that while sipping hot teh tarik at the warung nearby...ahackz..now thats wat i call the feeling of luxury which i cant afford here in my own country..so i had to go all the way across the causeway..oh well..no one's complaining right? (",)

p/s sorry to keep u waiting..thanks for the company and thanks for the sweater..

:: AARGGHHH!! ::

blardy hell!! i dunno what happened or who tampered with my handphone!! now ALL the phone numbers in my SIM cardz gone! yes...ALL!! bleugh!! dats a hell lot of numbers in there!! SOS!! HELP people!! pls inform me again of your numbers or i wont be able to contact u guys ever again..especially those of you whom i dont met often or those not in singapore...

!@$$%#^&^%&*#*

:: GIRLS' DAY OUT GIG ::

pics r up...

:: WATS BEYOND A SMILE? ::

the happiest people are not always happy..hmm...ive heard that countless of times..and yes its so fucken true..

on the outside..ure smiling..laughing..making jokes..BUT how may times were u actually genuine about it?? more often than not..wat u potrayed were just a facade...a shield to hide ur innermost feelings of anger..sadness..hatred..rejected..and wat have yous...you PRETENDED as if..everything was fine and that ure having a great time..you ACTED as if u dont care and u accepted everything light-heartedly..

i dont deny the fact that im guilty of that too..oh well im afterall human..but the worst part is.. sometimes i get tooo emotional..too sensitive..too possesive and defensive about something that it drives me nuts!! im disgusted with myself when that happens.. but yet..wat can i do about it?? its just me..just me and my feelings...jus me and my paranoia...derz nothing i can do except puting on an act..

im a hypocrite!! a hypocrite to my own self...sometimes i think i have a metal disorder..or a personality disorder...bah!!

disebalik senyum tersimpan beribu duka
disebalik tawa terselindung air mata
mulut berkata tidak mengapa
hati menahan rasa marah yg tak terhingga
semua yg terpapar hanya lakonan semata
inilah sandiwara dunia
episod yg takkan berakhir...
sampai bila-bila

its all rehearsed

:: GIRLS' MANIFESTO~!! ::

first stance recordings presents...girls in the scene matinee

date:
4 july 04 sunday
line-up:
Klux Klux Adventure My precious Bloody Reject Last Minute Ground Zero Mantra
venue:
Leez Musician Port (depan Hotel Sri Malaysia Larkin) 5 minute walks from larkin bus station JB

see ya there~!!

:: BLEUGHH!! ::

im in project room now..at my own cozy corner doing nothing..yeah..NOTHING!! bleugh..so much time wasted!! we've finished doing wat we're supposed to do why not let us off?? rather than we sit here and doing NOTHING productive at all. Yeah..i know..the place is air-con..quite..cozy..nobody..free internet BUT being cooped up in this room from 1pm-4:30pm can definitely drive anyone nuts!!

BUT..ive soooo many notes and research to do...i wanna go home!!

oh..tidaaaaakkkk~!!!

:: WEDNESDAYS ::

8am-10am
[WORLD ISSUES]

already gotten my 1st assignment..an oral presentation about PREJUDICE...

10am-12noon
[DESIGN & PROMOTING MATERIALS]

time to let my creative juices out~!! havent decided who to group with and what to choose for the upcoming assigment.Got to come up with a logo..a brochure..a poster and a short advertisitment promoting either "clean & green week" or "uniquely singapore" (STB)...hmmmm....

12noon-1pm [LUNCH BREAK]

hehhe...biasa ar...makan...slacked with the guys..kacau ppl...and smoking time~!!

1pm-3pm
[ETHICAL DILEMMAS]

open dicussions about ethical dilemmas...todays lesson was just an introduction about some of the common ethical dilemmas ppl faced...and our views on wat shud be done...discussed about wats "right" and wats "wrong"...then we talked about human rights...and i managed to slot in a bit about the freedom of speech issue and women's rigths..hahaha...
basically its like this..picked a certain issue/situataion..talked about it..gave our views..made our stands...give reasoning..lecturer even posed questions challenging our stand (even if he agrees with it) just to make us think deeper...at the end of the day its all up to US to put forward wat WE think...nobody's gonna stop u from expressing ur views...no ones gonna say..NO U SHUDN"T THINK DAT WAY...blablabla crap...not even the lecturer...so within that 2hr in that closed walls...its just a time for US to voice out..finally...freedom of speech being practiced...*winkz*


im loooving it~!!

:: A LEARNING JOURNEY ::

tomorrow marks the last day of my semester holz. its been one hell of a roller coaster ride...eye-opening experience...a truly different and unexpected semester break...

yeah...i know..its been a risky trip...lotsa unplanned/last min travelling alone...and lepakking with strangers/ppl i just got to know...but the adrenaline rush is wat i seek...(im loooving it~!!!)

BUT..it has also proven to be a great and effective learning journey....

its tru those trips that I learnt to communicate with others despite different views and opinions...i learnt how to carry/conduct myself...I learnt how to adapt to unfamiliar grounds out of my comfort zone...im forced to evaluate carefully before deciding on something because wateve the consequences were..ive got no-one to blame..and no help guaranteed......

the places ive been..the experience i went tru...the frens i met...the memories shared....im glad i took the risk..and just went for it! cos...its been GGRREEAATTT~!!!!

u guys opened my eyes..mind and heart...