MIMPI INDAH???

u asked me out on a date several times
u suggested coming over to spore instead of the usual routine of meeting up at JB
u showered me with sweet & loving smses everyday
u try to avoid any frictions or quarrelled
any signs of that...u quickly tried to change the mood of things
even if we did get into a quarrel
u controlled ur temper..
no longer keeping things to urself and just shut up as though nothing happened..
instead u agreed to talk things out nicely
and apologise first before i mention anything
u've finally take note of the things i like and dislike
u keep reminding me of our happy and sweet memories when were together a yr ago
sometimes u plan in advance about the things we're gonna do or u want to do for the weekends...
u've learned to trust me and accept my frens..
u're willing to listen to my views first before cutting in and giving ur views


its like u've finally listened...


me : awk dah berubah.knape time puasa ni awk baik ngan saya?


him: semuanya dtg dari awk.dari sikap sabar and pemurah awk kat saya.


me: oh god.i dunno why but ure making me cry.saya terharu dgn kata2 awk and sikap awk skang ni.


him: dah la.jgn nangis.saya kat sini tak leh nk kesatkan air mata awk.saya syg awk.


he was never one to show his true feelings before...
so wat happened?
he said its maybe because he's left THAT GIRL and now he's only with me.no one else.
well.....for now lah kan?
*shrug*
juts treasure it while it lasts...



is this some kind of a joke? is this a dream? but happy things dont last rite?

FIRST DAY OF WORK

nope...its not myself im bloggin about..
its about my SEMUT...


1st day according to him was a bore..


dont worry darling..
its just your first day
its boring cos u dont know anybody..
give it a week or two..
im sure u'll fit in pretty well


the dark clouds r starting to clear...if this is just a dream..i wish i never had to wake up

Nat King Cole's L-O-V-E

this is an oldies...

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

Congrats To Atok

He got his first real job as a dental assistant at Kota Tinggi
Congrats to him
thank god he wasnt posted to anywhere that far

CLEANSING RITUAL

it was raining heavily when i was on my way back from tuition
i had an umbrella in my bag


and for those who really know me
you guys would have guessed what i did


yes...
i didnt bothered taking out my umbrella
walked slowly in the heavy rain
enjoying the refreshing touch of every drop of rain on my skin
it left me feeling rejuvenated and calm


plus...
the sounds of RASMUS - Not Like Other Girls on repeat in my mp3
made me feel as though im floating
lost in another realm of time
lost in my own thoughts and emotions


never mind that im getting wierd stares from passer bys in their big humungous umbrella rushing for shelter
(must be because of my very slow walking pace...
i almost wanted to dance in the rain..literally...
or maybe because i had that wierd scary smile
i realised that when i looked at the reflections in the puddle of water)


i just fucken looooovvveee that feeling
its the most beautiful feeling one could ever get
the most glorious moments
the touch of nature
its as though im cleansed by the rain


i suddenly remembered nina the vampire..
she loved the rain too
i remembered the last time we met up
purposely because of the heavy rain
(we lived in the same area)
i miss her


ok then...gotta go shower before i catch a cold




Singin' in the rain
Just singin' in the rain.
What a glorious feelin'.
I'm happy again.
I'm laughin' at clouds
So dark up above.
The sun's in my heart
And I'm ready for love.
Let the stormy clouds chase
Everyone from the place.
Come on with the rain.
I've a smile on my face.
I'll walk down the lane
With a happy refrain,
And singin', just singin' in the rain.

A DATE WITH ATOK

excited
nervous
had butterflies in my stomach
the same feeling i had on our first date
the very first time he asked me out..


reached kota tinggi bus station at 5:15pm
he was already waiting for me..
(sorry dear..i was late but i already rushed down straight after work)


headed to collect his driving license





walked around aimlessly
talked,joked,laughed,gigled
we looked like silly school kids
hahhahahahahah


cancelled our plan to break fast at pizza hut
had ikan bakar instead...








him...waiting....





us...waiting...





the food was super duper yummy!!!


walked around the bazaar for a while..
he changed into the top i bought for him..





i think he really look good with the haircut and pink polo-t...
smart and neat...i like...hehe...


when it was time to part..
he sent me this sms...


"saya happy jumpe awk tadi..."


im glad you did..
i almost thought i was the only one who felt that way..
i was happy too dear...
very happy...


hope there'll be many days like this to come..
if not better...i heart you

OK...im doing this just because people thought i wont be bothered to..

[7] seven things that will scare me [7]

1. terserempak lagi ngan izzah lina
2. the extinction of laksa and sambal
3. still alive after all my frens and people im close to are dead
4. I was ban from leaving singapore
5. breaking down 1 fine day and taking my own life
6. the extinction of telur pindang
7. the extinction of telur ( I love telur sepertimana chek sal loves ayam)


[7] seven things i like the most [7]

1. Md Rohaizad Jumail
2. Internet and Myspace (kalau takde ini bende mcm ne aku nk berkomunikasi dgn kengkawan aku nun jauh di entah mana2 ???????)
3. Laksa kat Lucky Plaza
4. Fried Fish soup
5. The Petoms
6. Rain (tapi aku tak suke the after effect of main ujan…I hate having flu!)
7. Sambal (tak kire ar sambal belacan ke,sambal merah ke,sambal kicap ke)


[7] seven most important things in my room [7]

1. my laptop (eyh padahal laptop aku leh bawak ke sana ke mari eh)
2. my phone
3. my bantal
4. my katil (ye...aku suke tido)
5. the top right hand corner of my bed ( sebab Cuma kat situ je leh dapat reception for Digi ,my Malaysian hp line…hehhe)
6. the bear (my companion during my insane days...)
7. lighter (kalau takde lighter at bilik mcm ne nk operation isap rokok??)


[7] seven random facts about me [7]

1. I bite my finger nails
2. I always carry 2 hp (1 for spore line,1 for malaysian line)
3. I always bring my pasport with me
4. I daydream a lot
5. I dunno why but 80% of the time I always order nasi goreng ikan bilis/kampung even though I actually wanted to eat something else
6. I always have fantasies of killing people especially minah baju kurung and minah tudung malaysia
7. I like looking at girls boobs


[7] seven things i plan to do before i die [7]

1. Get married.
2. Have babies and named one of them putera sampoerna...hehehhe (my husband and my mum sure ngamuk)
3. have my own house with a big bathroom and a complete kitchen with stove
4. visit all my overseas online frens
5. go turkey !! aku nak makan makanan kat sana!! Sedap2 tau sume!!!
6 bungee jump
7. nk tengok the outcome of sal,sri and chuck ble sume dah berumah tangga and have kids....(the makcik petoms will be back!)


[7] seven things i can do [7]

1. I can finish 2 whole watermelon by myself
2. bend my thumbs backward
3. keep quiet for 1 whole day
4. eat and eat and eat but no go beyond 47kg
5. I can do anything if I set my mind to it
6. I can shoot with a rifle and a revolver
7. play the canang (eyh tak sume org leh play the canang tau…saying this from experience)


[7] seven things i can't do [7]

1. swim
2. whistle
3. cannot refrain myself from not contacting atan semut
4. say no to telur pindang
5. refrain myself from biting my nails
6. forgive and forget (forgive yes..forget..never)
7. wear fake earings...aku nye telinga...telinga kulit mahal..muahahhaha

[7] seven words/sentences i say most [7]

1. awak
2. ok
3. eh?
4. oi
5. erm
6. suka ati ar
7. huh


[7] seven celeb crushes [7]

1. mike damus ( my 1st celeb crush from pigstale)
2. apek senario (dia mmg best)
3. Robert de nero ( I don’t have a crush on him but I love his movies)
4. Angelina jolie (she’s hot hot hot!!!)
5. Julia stiles
6. chek sal
7. and chek sal again


[7] seven people i love to see doing this [7]

1. aku tak kisah pun




wei..noid..sape ckp aku tak bother?

Detik Bahagia Bermula

hari ini aku menerima dua berita gembira.


khas buat Freelife:


Tanhniah sayang kerana telah lulus ujian lesen memandu kereta.
Nah,kan betul apa yang saya katakan,jgn mudah putus asa.
Gagal sekali tidak bermakna gagal selamanya.
Buktinya,awak sudah lulus.
Dan sekarang boleh lah kita sama-sama kumpul duit untuk beli kereta ye.


Dan....aku juga mempunyai berita gembira untuk diriku sendiri.
Alhamdulillah kali ini aku lulus peperiksaan akhir tahun.
Bermakna,aku kini sudah tamat pengajian di politeknik.
Hanya menunggu diploma sahaja.
Lepas tu boleh lah aku mencari pekerjaan tetap.

Meniti Hari

Hari-hari yang dilalui dirasakan semakin menghampiri suatu perubahan. Perubahan yang entah bagaimana rentak iramanya. Tapi, yang pasti, jalan itu harus ku tempuhi untuk sebuah episod kehidupan.


Perubahan demi perubahan. Perubahan yang menagih seribu satu pengorbanan. Pastinya ada manisnya nanti. Segala-segalanya demi sebuah kebahagiaan agar hidup lebih bermakna.


ya allah,berilah aku kekuatan untuk menempuhi semua dugaan mu.

Rindunya Blog Ni....

Sudah sekian lama aku menyepikan diri dari laman ni.Terasa rindu pula.


Berbagai-bagai hal yang berlaku.
Yang sedih,yang pahit,yang menggeramkan,yang tak masuk akal dan juga yang manis.
Namun,alhamdulillah,walaupun saat ini aku masih lagi menghadapi berbagai masalah dan tekanan,aku masih mampu berdiri dan menjalani hidupku dengan tenang.


Aku akur bahawa kita semua hidup memang tak lari dari masalah.
Tapi aku bersyukur,aku mempunyai teman-teman yang mengambil berat tentang diriku dan sekaligus memberi aku bukan sekadar nasihat tapi juga semangat dan ketabahan untuk meniti hari-hariku.


Jutaan terima kasih buat teman-teman di alam nyata dan juga di alam siber.


Aku juga bersyukur dengan kehadiran seseorang yang ku sayang dalam hidupku yang semakin kosong ini.
Alhamdulillah,penantianku tidak sia-sia.


Sayang,aku sudah lupakan sengketa lama.
Aku mahu kita mulakan yang baru.
Semoga kini kita lebih kuat untuk menghadapi segala dugaan dan rintangan bersama,insyaallah.


Yang penting,kita mesti kuatkan semangat,tabahkan diri,dekatkan diri padaNya dan memohon pertolongan dariNya.


Tambahan lagi dengan tibanya bulan Ramadan yang mulia ini.
Semoga Ia membawa permulaan baru dalam hidupku.
Semoga Ramadan membawa ketenangan,keberkatan dan keceriaan.


Khas buat semua muslimah, Selamat Menjalankan Ibadah Puasa.


walau apapun yang terjadi,aku mesti tetap terus melangkah ke depan