BOTAK's NEW HAIRSTYLE

ahackz...
i cant stop stealing glances at botak in tutorial class today
i used to think that he was on a revenge to make up for being botak for 5 years of his life by not cutting off his very messy and outgrown hair
(its really really messy)


but finally...yes finally..
he got a haircut!! yey!!
its still long at the top but the sides are shaved
and yes..he looks more presentable now
terserlah kecomelan nye...heheh


though i would really love it if he's botak again
i think he looks really cute back during his botak days
it highlights his really big and beautiful eyes
and his smile...:D
i had a crush on him cos of that apart from his really wierd and mysterious ways


by the way...i sent him this sms after class today


" awak kelihatan kemas hari ni.nice haircut"
(wanted to add..tapi awk lebih cute kalau botak..but i didnt..hahah)


and this is what he replied
" haha.awak notice ye.menerima kasih"


hahahhahaha...he always give wierd replies
and i find it cute...waahahahahah

SIAPA BILANG GADIS MELAYU TAK MENAWAN

the song is stuck in my head


just got back from danga bay with sal and norman
nothing much...just lepak...
and had to waste money on cab fare becos dearest norman didnt drive his car today
(bile kite klua 2 orang je kamu bawak kereta...tapi bile klua lebih dari 2 orang kamu bawak moto lak...apadah)
but cant blame him cos he didnt know sal was coming..
(urgh!! kalau tak dpt aku naik moto ngan dia eh..wahahahha...)


but norman was very mean and cheeky today!!!
for the first time in our entire 3 years of frenship...dia pukul aku!!!
(ok not really pukul lah...but still...grrrr!!!)


norman...norman...norman...
persahabatan aku dgn dia dah mencecah lebih dari 3 tahun
dia lah kawan malaysia yg pertama yg aku kenal
dari irc lak tu..
tak sangka leh rapat sampai skarang
dia lah (secara tak langsung) yg menjadi permulaan bagi penglibatan aku dgn budak2 kat malaysia
dan dia lah yg memulakan hobi merantau aku tu..


hmm...entahlah...
susah nk terangkan tentang persahabatan aku ngan dia
aku pernah sayangkan dia
dan dia pernah sayangkan aku
tapi pada 2 masa yg berbeza
dia pernah hancurkan hati aku
dan aku pernah sakitkan hati dia
tapi skarang ni...we've reached a point whereby..
kita tak hiraukan lagi soal hati dan perasaan masing2 terhadap diri masing2
we still do talk and joke about it sometimes
but...lepas tu...masing2 just abaikan bende tu mcm tu je
yes...we've accepted the fact that we're meant to be just close frens and nothing more


i love him
he loves me
but its a different kind of love
no one can understand this
but im glad he does

THIS ONE IS FOR U

i picked up a new hobby
to vent my anger,disappoinment and frustration
one more...
that is for u...

ONCE UPON A BORING AFTERNOON

bored
no ciggies
limited cash
i saw a safety pin
and this is wat i did..











hehehehe...ni namanye takde keje

MEMORIES

prior to that...
khai sms-ed me
NO!not that desaru cycling Khai
its khai ECE...or better known as khai si mat tapered tu..
ahackz...wat a surprise!!!
its been so long since we've met
he's now graduated and in a months's time..he's gonna fall into the "abang2 polis" category too

oh gawd...memories of lepak sessions at atrium
and smoking sessions at bustop just came flooding by
those were the early poly days...

erkk!! all these reminiscing bout the past just makes me feel freaking old

COINCIDENCES

ex-crushes been coming back into my life one after another


first it was juraimi (now abg polis)


then "botak" started sms-ing me again after years of silence
( had a lil crush on him in my early years in poly but we never talk when we meet even though we're in the same class not even smile when we bump directly into each other.kinda wierd cos i recalled an incident whereby we were the only 2 ppl in the lift..and he talks to me but once the door opens he acts as though he dont know me but he flirts in his sms-es )


and then..this morning and again at night had a chat with "pakcik munkee"
( the one who had my pic enlarged and framed up on the wall of his room
sampaikan umi dia can still remember me after like a year plus of not contacting each other cos he recognised me from the pic...but must be careful cos he's starting to have a crush on me again but problem is..he's attached now..so i must not kacau them)


and in the afternoon..a long lost irc fren sms-ed me
(i cant remember who the hell he is but he remembers everything about me and mind u..i havent been in irc for more than 3 yrs now )


mcm tau je aku nga single
and mcm tau je aku dah start using my starhub number
and im sure all these ppl will disappear soon like how they re-appeared


coincidences..coincidences..coincidences...
WIERD coincidences...

KECOH DAY

i was out shoe hunting with sal,sis,sri today
supposed to hunt for vans originals but we found these instead..





i love far east plaza..it has anything and everything under one roof
1 thing i hate though..
being the very malas and simple minded melayu i am..
i'll forget all about the good things the place has to offer once i get out of far east plaza and
i can never ever remember what shop is where
so i always had a hard time going back to the shop i went to previously


ahackz!! kecoh and excited giler kite hari ni..
actually its not becos of the shoes
but its just us
when sri,sal and hani meets up..
there'll be no more peace
hahahhahahahah


rushed off to high street after that
racing against time to get to the top of the building
to catch these...











and after that..on the way home...
we met many many abang2 polis..
kene kacau plak tu..
but urgh!! menyesal aku bo layan abg polis yg kacau kite tu
sebab bile aku pusing balik..he's actually kinda cute!!


and...we met JURAIMI!!
yes!! that same juraimi i had a crush on like a few years back!
OMG!!! he looks soooo cute in his full police uniform!!
still donning that sweet cair-able smile of his..
sheesh!! reminds me of those times...
hahhahahahah....


and one more surprise of the day..
botak sms-ed me
yup!! botak np...
another ex-crush of mine
yg sombong nk mampos kat sekolah tapi kalau time member dia takde or masa sms frenly and cute abes...
OMG! wat is this??
crushes day??


wateva it is...today was fun !!

LOOK UP AND SAY HEY

i was scanning thru my old entries dated 2 months ago and..
oh my god!!
its scary!!!
ive turned into this whiny cry-baby love slave
was that really me?????
*almost fainted in disbelief*


im gonna put a stop to all these wallowing-in-self-pity mode
HELLO!!! its been 2 months!!
its MORE than enough dearest hani...


so from this moment on...


+ no more loved dovey sad jiwang or even whiny emo songs
+ its time to bring in the energy of Oi!, punk and hardcore!
+ not forgetting the happy tunes of Ska to start the morning
+ no more late nights spent crying my eyeballs out ..GET YOUR BEAUTY SLEEP!
+ no more reminiscning the past...just laugh it off
+ dont let him make u cry again... hani dear...u have many other frens who appreciates u and can make u laugh... go bug them instead!!
+ dont forget to polish up ur DM boots...its already collecting dust.its time u don them on again..wee~


hahhahaha...
welcome back hani...
welcome back..
here's a toast to u..


p/s sayang atok kebayan..lets get back to being just frens ya.. ;)

DEAD END

everythings gone
dreams and hopes shattered
things will never be back to normal again for us
worst still...
things will never get better
its getting worst day by day
and the emotional and mental stress is getting to me
im tired so please stop
i gave up
i lost hope
so please leave me alone
let me wilt and wither

TRIP WITH DAD TO KOTA TINGGI

DAD: ani,lepas hujan berhenti,kau siap2..kita gi kota tinggi.nak ikut tak?


ME : hah??? today?? kota tinggi?? again?? for what??


DAD : banyak tanye lak.nak ikut tak? inform atan sekali


ME: (in my heart.. what the hell???? tapi takpe..i better tag along) ok..set!


pergghh!! i cant wait to get a bike of my own.then i can go zoom zoom like my dad...anywhere..and anytime..


anyhow..shopping and lepak session with dad,atan,noli(his sis) and her fren was...erm...scary and confusing...


this shouldn't have happened


they are getting too close for comfort and the worst part is..WE r having issues...serious issues